A beautiful night

Tonight was amazing, the moon at its crescent, a clear night with stars showing.. What more can one ask for a ritual night?
Especially when my alter is on a balcony in a inner city ghetto..

It felt more mystical tonight.. Has I place my blood upon my stones.. A circle of stones surrounding my alter cauldron.
Awhile back they were pure white, now they look more occultish. Brown with aged blood and oil covering them. They are a sort of connection to the past, a bonding of tradition that seen changed thru the generations and cultures before me.

I sat and meditated after my ritual to Belhpegore. I can sense a fulfillment of understanding. That I am connecting someway to those before me. From across the waters in the old country, to Egypt, to South America.. To the others who prayed to the old gods.. The key understanding is that blood, the sangría, is the foundation of it all.. Our ancestors understood that with blood was life. The human sacrifices, the animal scarifies, the self mutilation for their beliefs.. all for the purpose to spill blood for their deities.. Blood the currency of the spirit world, a substance of energy..

Tonight I read my homework assignment, and by tomorrow I shall do it

Night pondering

I wonder if anyone noticed their blood flow during ritual... Sounds like a strange thought..

It seems.. when your really locked in ritual mode.. It is far easier to bleed and produce bigger drops..
It sounds pretty sadistic to comment on this on the board.. But I've been keeping track since last year.. comparing it with moments where I had side thoughts during ritual. What really is remarkable is it kept dripping out during the whole 30 minutes of the blood part of the ritual.. I hope its not a sign that I am turning anemic..

Some Thoughts, a Reflection of the past

For the past nights since the start of the Belphegore season I have given my time and blood to Belphegore.. Every night.. Not just 3 rites a year.. But every night... I figure anyone can do it for only 3 rites.. Why not until the end of the year? Last year I stopped at winter time cause of the consistent rain fall we had..
Why do this? Why every night? One word is discipline, and the other... I'm not sure.. I figure if I was a demon I would expect my followers to flog themselves and spill blood for me every night.. But truthfully its discipline. I was taught in a early age if you have a excuse to miss it, then it can be any type of excuse no matter how big or small will replace it... Meaning if you miss it cause there was something more important that came up, then what your doing wasn't that important to begin with..
I feel it is important.. It is my time with Belphegore.. or Belphegore's time with me..

Some Key events:

I created my first official tinture.. 151 Everclear (The real stuff is illegal here) and Eucalyptus leaves (which I get for free and in abundance, I got a tree growing right next to my balcony).. I know I've been saying to myself I'm going to restock my Belphegore supplies (incense and oleums) and make them, but money has been lacking, so the next best thing is a small scale test run.. Because after the tinture phase its going to be in a fat base... If push comes to shove I'll start sacrificing more blood from me, or maybe those chickens I keep hearing every freaken day... Yes some one has chickens here in the inner city....

I meet someone that is willing to teach me the ways of Demonolatry.. Like officially teaching me, I'm pretty excited about that. I've been following the belief since 1999.. kind of a shamefully groupie also.. Got almost every book on the subject.. I hope it turns out good. The last teacher flipped her wig and turned weird and brought in massive amounts of drama to the web board that I go too.. Oh its sort of a non traditional teaching, never met him face to face. So it's going to be different, past times I trained in my past systems has been face to face.. But the way I see it, its like correspondence classes I taken when I was in the military.. All those free FEMA courses and CLPS for free college credits.. But this is better and faster, emails and IMs..