I moved my blood alter indoors to my indoor alter. I feel more free indoors instead of the balcony.. Sadly no incense burning or offering burning.
I think its important to feel more free, it helps me mentally to do my ritual completely without thinking someone is watching me and thinking I'm a nut.. Has the weather warms in the nights around here, people are outside celebrating and having parties..
I wish I had some land or a privacy fence surrounding a nice backyard so I can conduct my rituals outside without being pried on.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Expansion of the Deep Earth Mediation
A friend showed me this with a dirt pile and a drum. It was like a self guided meditation while he was tapping a beat with a drum while I laid in the dirt.. You can do this without the dirt, for best effect it should be on the floor.
1) You are Returning to the Earth
2) You feel yourself sinking into the ground
3) You see the many layers of soil and rock
4) You feel the Earth filtering away your weakness, your pain, has it does with the water
5) You pass deeper near the fire
6) What the soil and rock can not filter the fire well purify
7) You feel the intensity of the heat, where metal and rock be one in liquid
8) You release your fate to the Earth and allow it do what must be done
9) You well feel hot and energized
10) You well harden like stone has the day passes
You basically visualize yourself going in the Earth, stripping away the negative from the outer aura like sand paper or a charcoal filter like a Brita..
Then you end up catching yourself on fire purifying from the inside like the molten core.. You might be sweating at this point or running a fever.. My first time took awhile, but now I can do it in a hour, but the cool down process is still long, makes for a rough night of sleep but you feel very energized.
A year later from that experience I talked to a friend who worked with auras, she said that it is best to work on your aura during this process..
This method is different then a basic Earth meditation where you envision a green energy coming from the ground into you.
1) You are Returning to the Earth
2) You feel yourself sinking into the ground
3) You see the many layers of soil and rock
4) You feel the Earth filtering away your weakness, your pain, has it does with the water
5) You pass deeper near the fire
6) What the soil and rock can not filter the fire well purify
7) You feel the intensity of the heat, where metal and rock be one in liquid
8) You release your fate to the Earth and allow it do what must be done
9) You well feel hot and energized
10) You well harden like stone has the day passes
You basically visualize yourself going in the Earth, stripping away the negative from the outer aura like sand paper or a charcoal filter like a Brita..
Then you end up catching yourself on fire purifying from the inside like the molten core.. You might be sweating at this point or running a fever.. My first time took awhile, but now I can do it in a hour, but the cool down process is still long, makes for a rough night of sleep but you feel very energized.
A year later from that experience I talked to a friend who worked with auras, she said that it is best to work on your aura during this process..
This method is different then a basic Earth meditation where you envision a green energy coming from the ground into you.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Under the weather and back
The day before yesterday I was hit with some sort of flu that would of made my work trip to Mexico unbearable.
Out of emergency and necessity I regressed to reki , chakra alignment, and deep earth meditation.. Or sort of melding of all three.. I tend to do this when it really was needed.. The results are amazing, but my sleep was destroyed and a I feel very fatigued now (it could have been the 8hrs of drive time too) but I'm paying for it...
I laid on the ground and meditated on what to do after I did a few prayer bowls and contemplated this dilemma.
I started a circular breathing and envisioned my chakra's has sphere's hovering over their perspective areas. I could tell there was a miss alignment cause of the color and the looked crusted over. Out of haste I did a forced deep earth meditation, I don't recommend it unless your a student of mediations.. It felt like laying in really hot water or a spiritual sense you were in the center of the earth sweating profusely.. Being emerged in the Earth's cleansing cycle.. It wasn't gentle.. During that time I reworked my aura, I was warned along time ago by a practitioner if you don't wok on you aura while doing this you would feel much worse then what you were.. At the end I felt like I came out of a mental struggle.. I slept on the ground curled up.. waking hourly for water and from some weird dreams of volcanos and Vulcan, or I think it was Vulcan beating on some hot metal with a hammer... I awoke better and full of energy for my job.. Got back from the job and feel so sapped of all energy right now...
I read the Demonolatry Goetia by S. Connolly, it got me thinking on expanding my practice with Belphegore and others.. Going to do some sketches on how I want my circle to be and see if I have enough supplies for another black mirror. I wonder if she would write a book on magician tools and talismans like in relations to Demonolatry, like shield bracelets and lunar wands.. It would be intriguing to see the adaptions
Out of emergency and necessity I regressed to reki , chakra alignment, and deep earth meditation.. Or sort of melding of all three.. I tend to do this when it really was needed.. The results are amazing, but my sleep was destroyed and a I feel very fatigued now (it could have been the 8hrs of drive time too) but I'm paying for it...
I laid on the ground and meditated on what to do after I did a few prayer bowls and contemplated this dilemma.
I started a circular breathing and envisioned my chakra's has sphere's hovering over their perspective areas. I could tell there was a miss alignment cause of the color and the looked crusted over. Out of haste I did a forced deep earth meditation, I don't recommend it unless your a student of mediations.. It felt like laying in really hot water or a spiritual sense you were in the center of the earth sweating profusely.. Being emerged in the Earth's cleansing cycle.. It wasn't gentle.. During that time I reworked my aura, I was warned along time ago by a practitioner if you don't wok on you aura while doing this you would feel much worse then what you were.. At the end I felt like I came out of a mental struggle.. I slept on the ground curled up.. waking hourly for water and from some weird dreams of volcanos and Vulcan, or I think it was Vulcan beating on some hot metal with a hammer... I awoke better and full of energy for my job.. Got back from the job and feel so sapped of all energy right now...
I read the Demonolatry Goetia by S. Connolly, it got me thinking on expanding my practice with Belphegore and others.. Going to do some sketches on how I want my circle to be and see if I have enough supplies for another black mirror. I wonder if she would write a book on magician tools and talismans like in relations to Demonolatry, like shield bracelets and lunar wands.. It would be intriguing to see the adaptions
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Work Work
Belphegore be praised.. Work just rolled up and bam 12 hours yesterday and 4 today.. Hopefully this is seed sprouting to something amazing.
Was so sluggish and tired yesterday I couldn't focus for my alter ritual, so I did a simple candle ritual.. A few drops of blood on each candle... I can't miss it.
Amazing observation.. I see new leaves on my white sage :D
Was so sluggish and tired yesterday I couldn't focus for my alter ritual, so I did a simple candle ritual.. A few drops of blood on each candle... I can't miss it.
Amazing observation.. I see new leaves on my white sage :D
Monday, April 19, 2010
A beautiful night
Tonight was amazing, the moon at its crescent, a clear night with stars showing.. What more can one ask for a ritual night?
Especially when my alter is on a balcony in a inner city ghetto..
It felt more mystical tonight.. Has I place my blood upon my stones.. A circle of stones surrounding my alter cauldron.
Awhile back they were pure white, now they look more occultish. Brown with aged blood and oil covering them. They are a sort of connection to the past, a bonding of tradition that seen changed thru the generations and cultures before me.
I sat and meditated after my ritual to Belhpegore. I can sense a fulfillment of understanding. That I am connecting someway to those before me. From across the waters in the old country, to Egypt, to South America.. To the others who prayed to the old gods.. The key understanding is that blood, the sangría, is the foundation of it all.. Our ancestors understood that with blood was life. The human sacrifices, the animal scarifies, the self mutilation for their beliefs.. all for the purpose to spill blood for their deities.. Blood the currency of the spirit world, a substance of energy..
Tonight I read my homework assignment, and by tomorrow I shall do it
Especially when my alter is on a balcony in a inner city ghetto..
It felt more mystical tonight.. Has I place my blood upon my stones.. A circle of stones surrounding my alter cauldron.
Awhile back they were pure white, now they look more occultish. Brown with aged blood and oil covering them. They are a sort of connection to the past, a bonding of tradition that seen changed thru the generations and cultures before me.
I sat and meditated after my ritual to Belhpegore. I can sense a fulfillment of understanding. That I am connecting someway to those before me. From across the waters in the old country, to Egypt, to South America.. To the others who prayed to the old gods.. The key understanding is that blood, the sangría, is the foundation of it all.. Our ancestors understood that with blood was life. The human sacrifices, the animal scarifies, the self mutilation for their beliefs.. all for the purpose to spill blood for their deities.. Blood the currency of the spirit world, a substance of energy..
Tonight I read my homework assignment, and by tomorrow I shall do it
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Night pondering
I wonder if anyone noticed their blood flow during ritual... Sounds like a strange thought..
It seems.. when your really locked in ritual mode.. It is far easier to bleed and produce bigger drops..
It sounds pretty sadistic to comment on this on the board.. But I've been keeping track since last year.. comparing it with moments where I had side thoughts during ritual. What really is remarkable is it kept dripping out during the whole 30 minutes of the blood part of the ritual.. I hope its not a sign that I am turning anemic..
It seems.. when your really locked in ritual mode.. It is far easier to bleed and produce bigger drops..
It sounds pretty sadistic to comment on this on the board.. But I've been keeping track since last year.. comparing it with moments where I had side thoughts during ritual. What really is remarkable is it kept dripping out during the whole 30 minutes of the blood part of the ritual.. I hope its not a sign that I am turning anemic..
Contact with the past
Today was a weird day.. I had two calls come in from out of the blue from people I haven't heard in a few years.
One was a co-worker from another company who is working at Exxon. A bright man from Africa, but I think he is so full of himself sometimes, but he is a good man. We talked and he said he has been busy with the refinery work, I wish I could of told him the same.. But I was truthful and mentioned to him I changed my career path to structural inspection work, not refineries no longer..
Second person was one of my apprentices from the time I worked with the Petroleum industry. He is finally a journeymen. I am proud of him, he learned the tools of the trade from me. And he is making it good in Texas, he called me on advice on a project and he was checking on his "old tech".. Damn it I'm not that old, but it was a good feeling to think that someone was calling me to see how I am... Wow, its been a few years and he spend 2 1/2 years being assigned with me.. Many nights of having him hit the books and grilling over math and theories.. He promised to stop by and pay a steak dinner and all the beer I can drink. But truthful I don't need payment for putting time and alot of effort in him.
Has time passes on this new career path I find that enjoy this, I don't come home smelling like sulfur or crude oil.. I am not burnt in some way, no acid suits and gas masks.. But I miss the pay and the thought of a job tomorrow.. Hopefully this week I'll be busy..
Time progresses on the path of Belphegore. The hopes of fortune, treasure, and prosperity is what I ask.. But in what I wonder? I seem to not recall asking for money or gold.. I ask to never go hungry, to have a job, and for a good life.. Does anywhere in that means wealth of money...
I remember a ritual I done to increase my chances to win the lottery.. I included the lottery tickets in this.. The next day the numbers and the scan bar was faded.. I think it was in the incense smoke that did that.. I never repeated that ritual since then, but I am tempted to try again with a few modifications.
Something of interest happened.. I reconnected with a friend from the board through Facebook and had a good talk about oleums and tintures.. I miss those type of discussions. The talk really got me wondering on the next steps of my eucalyptus oleum. After the evaporation process and filtering would I really have that much to work with in the fat base?
I looked for guidelines of what makes a true oleum. THere is really no written information and regulations on it..
I propose these guidelines on myself:
1. A oleum is simple a vessel for the necessary chemical and magickal components of the plant material to travel.
a) Fat base, according to all research is quickly absorbed by the human skin.
2. To judge if the right amount of plant material is used, a majority of the plant traits must be there, judging by the use of the senses. To for fill these step one or more of the senses must be used if applicable (excluding taste if dealing with known poisoness plants)
a) The fragrance
b) The color
c) The feel
d) The taste
3. ???? - How would one judge magick abilities on the oleum? Is that assuming that it has one or all of the plant material traits carried over to the base?
So in order for my Eucalyptus oleum to pass these requirements it either has to be green, smell like it, or semi menthol feel.. I never personally tastes it before, maybe I should chew on a leaf to see how it tastes..
I saw some new growth on my white sage, that might be a good sign that the transplants is taking.. On a side note I am thinking about growing the rarer herbs since its much harder to purchase them, to expensive.. You know you can buy a mandrake root, eurpoean, for $400.. Thats the whole thing, and much more if it has the human trait features...
One was a co-worker from another company who is working at Exxon. A bright man from Africa, but I think he is so full of himself sometimes, but he is a good man. We talked and he said he has been busy with the refinery work, I wish I could of told him the same.. But I was truthful and mentioned to him I changed my career path to structural inspection work, not refineries no longer..
Second person was one of my apprentices from the time I worked with the Petroleum industry. He is finally a journeymen. I am proud of him, he learned the tools of the trade from me. And he is making it good in Texas, he called me on advice on a project and he was checking on his "old tech".. Damn it I'm not that old, but it was a good feeling to think that someone was calling me to see how I am... Wow, its been a few years and he spend 2 1/2 years being assigned with me.. Many nights of having him hit the books and grilling over math and theories.. He promised to stop by and pay a steak dinner and all the beer I can drink. But truthful I don't need payment for putting time and alot of effort in him.
Has time passes on this new career path I find that enjoy this, I don't come home smelling like sulfur or crude oil.. I am not burnt in some way, no acid suits and gas masks.. But I miss the pay and the thought of a job tomorrow.. Hopefully this week I'll be busy..
Time progresses on the path of Belphegore. The hopes of fortune, treasure, and prosperity is what I ask.. But in what I wonder? I seem to not recall asking for money or gold.. I ask to never go hungry, to have a job, and for a good life.. Does anywhere in that means wealth of money...
I remember a ritual I done to increase my chances to win the lottery.. I included the lottery tickets in this.. The next day the numbers and the scan bar was faded.. I think it was in the incense smoke that did that.. I never repeated that ritual since then, but I am tempted to try again with a few modifications.
Something of interest happened.. I reconnected with a friend from the board through Facebook and had a good talk about oleums and tintures.. I miss those type of discussions. The talk really got me wondering on the next steps of my eucalyptus oleum. After the evaporation process and filtering would I really have that much to work with in the fat base?
I looked for guidelines of what makes a true oleum. THere is really no written information and regulations on it..
I propose these guidelines on myself:
1. A oleum is simple a vessel for the necessary chemical and magickal components of the plant material to travel.
a) Fat base, according to all research is quickly absorbed by the human skin.
2. To judge if the right amount of plant material is used, a majority of the plant traits must be there, judging by the use of the senses. To for fill these step one or more of the senses must be used if applicable (excluding taste if dealing with known poisoness plants)
a) The fragrance
b) The color
c) The feel
d) The taste
3. ???? - How would one judge magick abilities on the oleum? Is that assuming that it has one or all of the plant material traits carried over to the base?
So in order for my Eucalyptus oleum to pass these requirements it either has to be green, smell like it, or semi menthol feel.. I never personally tastes it before, maybe I should chew on a leaf to see how it tastes..
I saw some new growth on my white sage, that might be a good sign that the transplants is taking.. On a side note I am thinking about growing the rarer herbs since its much harder to purchase them, to expensive.. You know you can buy a mandrake root, eurpoean, for $400.. Thats the whole thing, and much more if it has the human trait features...
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Some Thoughts, a Reflection of the past
For the past nights since the start of the Belphegore season I have given my time and blood to Belphegore.. Every night.. Not just 3 rites a year.. But every night... I figure anyone can do it for only 3 rites.. Why not until the end of the year? Last year I stopped at winter time cause of the consistent rain fall we had..
Why do this? Why every night? One word is discipline, and the other... I'm not sure.. I figure if I was a demon I would expect my followers to flog themselves and spill blood for me every night.. But truthfully its discipline. I was taught in a early age if you have a excuse to miss it, then it can be any type of excuse no matter how big or small will replace it... Meaning if you miss it cause there was something more important that came up, then what your doing wasn't that important to begin with..
I feel it is important.. It is my time with Belphegore.. or Belphegore's time with me..
Some Key events:
I created my first official tinture.. 151 Everclear (The real stuff is illegal here) and Eucalyptus leaves (which I get for free and in abundance, I got a tree growing right next to my balcony).. I know I've been saying to myself I'm going to restock my Belphegore supplies (incense and oleums) and make them, but money has been lacking, so the next best thing is a small scale test run.. Because after the tinture phase its going to be in a fat base... If push comes to shove I'll start sacrificing more blood from me, or maybe those chickens I keep hearing every freaken day... Yes some one has chickens here in the inner city....
I meet someone that is willing to teach me the ways of Demonolatry.. Like officially teaching me, I'm pretty excited about that. I've been following the belief since 1999.. kind of a shamefully groupie also.. Got almost every book on the subject.. I hope it turns out good. The last teacher flipped her wig and turned weird and brought in massive amounts of drama to the web board that I go too.. Oh its sort of a non traditional teaching, never met him face to face. So it's going to be different, past times I trained in my past systems has been face to face.. But the way I see it, its like correspondence classes I taken when I was in the military.. All those free FEMA courses and CLPS for free college credits.. But this is better and faster, emails and IMs..
Why do this? Why every night? One word is discipline, and the other... I'm not sure.. I figure if I was a demon I would expect my followers to flog themselves and spill blood for me every night.. But truthfully its discipline. I was taught in a early age if you have a excuse to miss it, then it can be any type of excuse no matter how big or small will replace it... Meaning if you miss it cause there was something more important that came up, then what your doing wasn't that important to begin with..
I feel it is important.. It is my time with Belphegore.. or Belphegore's time with me..
Some Key events:
I created my first official tinture.. 151 Everclear (The real stuff is illegal here) and Eucalyptus leaves (which I get for free and in abundance, I got a tree growing right next to my balcony).. I know I've been saying to myself I'm going to restock my Belphegore supplies (incense and oleums) and make them, but money has been lacking, so the next best thing is a small scale test run.. Because after the tinture phase its going to be in a fat base... If push comes to shove I'll start sacrificing more blood from me, or maybe those chickens I keep hearing every freaken day... Yes some one has chickens here in the inner city....
I meet someone that is willing to teach me the ways of Demonolatry.. Like officially teaching me, I'm pretty excited about that. I've been following the belief since 1999.. kind of a shamefully groupie also.. Got almost every book on the subject.. I hope it turns out good. The last teacher flipped her wig and turned weird and brought in massive amounts of drama to the web board that I go too.. Oh its sort of a non traditional teaching, never met him face to face. So it's going to be different, past times I trained in my past systems has been face to face.. But the way I see it, its like correspondence classes I taken when I was in the military.. All those free FEMA courses and CLPS for free college credits.. But this is better and faster, emails and IMs..
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