Oleum moment

I am double boiling my tincture mix.. In theory enough time has past for the alcohol to evap.. Now I notice a rapid boil in the specimen jar and then it faded away, I would have to assume that it was the water boiling away from the specimen. I'll give it a few more minutes to see if there would be another rapid boil appear.

Change of view

I moved my blood alter indoors to my indoor alter. I feel more free indoors instead of the balcony.. Sadly no incense burning or offering burning.

I think its important to feel more free, it helps me mentally to do my ritual completely without thinking someone is watching me and thinking I'm a nut.. Has the weather warms in the nights around here, people are outside celebrating and having parties..

I wish I had some land or a privacy fence surrounding a nice backyard so I can conduct my rituals outside without being pried on.

Expansion of the Deep Earth Mediation

A friend showed me this with a dirt pile and a drum. It was like a self guided meditation while he was tapping a beat with a drum while I laid in the dirt.. You can do this without the dirt, for best effect it should be on the floor.

1) You are Returning to the Earth
2) You feel yourself sinking into the ground
3) You see the many layers of soil and rock
4) You feel the Earth filtering away your weakness, your pain, has it does with the water
5) You pass deeper near the fire
6) What the soil and rock can not filter the fire well purify
7) You feel the intensity of the heat, where metal and rock be one in liquid
8) You release your fate to the Earth and allow it do what must be done
9) You well feel hot and energized
10) You well harden like stone has the day passes

You basically visualize yourself going in the Earth, stripping away the negative from the outer aura like sand paper or a charcoal filter like a Brita..
Then you end up catching yourself on fire purifying from the inside like the molten core.. You might be sweating at this point or running a fever.. My first time took awhile, but now I can do it in a hour, but the cool down process is still long, makes for a rough night of sleep but you feel very energized.

A year later from that experience I talked to a friend who worked with auras, she said that it is best to work on your aura during this process..

This method is different then a basic Earth meditation where you envision a green energy coming from the ground into you.

Under the weather and back

The day before yesterday I was hit with some sort of flu that would of made my work trip to Mexico unbearable.

Out of emergency and necessity I regressed to reki , chakra alignment, and deep earth meditation.. Or sort of melding of all three.. I tend to do this when it really was needed.. The results are amazing, but my sleep was destroyed and a I feel very fatigued now (it could have been the 8hrs of drive time too) but I'm paying for it...

I laid on the ground and meditated on what to do after I did a few prayer bowls and contemplated this dilemma.
I started a circular breathing and envisioned my chakra's has sphere's hovering over their perspective areas. I could tell there was a miss alignment cause of the color and the looked crusted over. Out of haste I did a forced deep earth meditation, I don't recommend it unless your a student of mediations.. It felt like laying in really hot water or a spiritual sense you were in the center of the earth sweating profusely.. Being emerged in the Earth's cleansing cycle.. It wasn't gentle.. During that time I reworked my aura, I was warned along time ago by a practitioner if you don't wok on you aura while doing this you would feel much worse then what you were.. At the end I felt like I came out of a mental struggle.. I slept on the ground curled up.. waking hourly for water and from some weird dreams of volcanos and Vulcan, or I think it was Vulcan beating on some hot metal with a hammer... I awoke better and full of energy for my job.. Got back from the job and feel so sapped of all energy right now...

I read the Demonolatry Goetia by S. Connolly, it got me thinking on expanding my practice with Belphegore and others.. Going to do some sketches on how I want my circle to be and see if I have enough supplies for another black mirror. I wonder if she would write a book on magician tools and talismans like in relations to Demonolatry, like shield bracelets and lunar wands.. It would be intriguing to see the adaptions

Work Work

Belphegore be praised.. Work just rolled up and bam 12 hours yesterday and 4 today.. Hopefully this is seed sprouting to something amazing.

Was so sluggish and tired yesterday I couldn't focus for my alter ritual, so I did a simple candle ritual.. A few drops of blood on each candle... I can't miss it.

Amazing observation.. I see new leaves on my white sage :D

A beautiful night

Tonight was amazing, the moon at its crescent, a clear night with stars showing.. What more can one ask for a ritual night?
Especially when my alter is on a balcony in a inner city ghetto..

It felt more mystical tonight.. Has I place my blood upon my stones.. A circle of stones surrounding my alter cauldron.
Awhile back they were pure white, now they look more occultish. Brown with aged blood and oil covering them. They are a sort of connection to the past, a bonding of tradition that seen changed thru the generations and cultures before me.

I sat and meditated after my ritual to Belhpegore. I can sense a fulfillment of understanding. That I am connecting someway to those before me. From across the waters in the old country, to Egypt, to South America.. To the others who prayed to the old gods.. The key understanding is that blood, the sangría, is the foundation of it all.. Our ancestors understood that with blood was life. The human sacrifices, the animal scarifies, the self mutilation for their beliefs.. all for the purpose to spill blood for their deities.. Blood the currency of the spirit world, a substance of energy..

Tonight I read my homework assignment, and by tomorrow I shall do it

Night pondering

I wonder if anyone noticed their blood flow during ritual... Sounds like a strange thought..

It seems.. when your really locked in ritual mode.. It is far easier to bleed and produce bigger drops..
It sounds pretty sadistic to comment on this on the board.. But I've been keeping track since last year.. comparing it with moments where I had side thoughts during ritual. What really is remarkable is it kept dripping out during the whole 30 minutes of the blood part of the ritual.. I hope its not a sign that I am turning anemic..